So that is my recent past, but I finally have let that stage in my life go. Once I let it go everything seemed easier... I still struggle and get angry at myself for putting those who really cared for me on the backburner. For those of you reading this I truly am sorry. I used to get angry and frustrated at him for being dishonest to the people in his life, but I have learned it is not my battle. I have to put it in God's hands. The hardest thing to do is let go control and trust God-- it is something I struggle with every day but I know I can do it with this and every other obstacle in my life. Because I have Him and soo many wonderful friends and family. I'm blessed and now more than ever I want to be more of a blessing to others.
"For beautiful eyes, look for the good in others; for beautiful lips, speak only words of kindness; and for poise, walk with the knowledge that you are never alone."The things I have gone through within the last two years have taught me a lot about helping others, but also knowing when it is not your battle. I've seen first hand the bad that can take over someone's life if they let it. However my optimism and "tenderheartedness" as my friend Beth says has not changed, nor will I let any other obstacles that come change that. I always want to see the good in people, always strive to speak my truth, and behave in ways that in harmony with what I believe, no matter what someone says. I have had a few great people come into my life recently, which I thank God for every day. I feel inspired to help others, reach out to God more, and want to be braver about my faith. Right now I feel as if I'm waiting for something. I pray to God to lead me as he sees fit and help me be a light in wherever my life will go.
I promise my future posts won't be this heavy but before you begin the adventure you need a little character development right!